Does true freedom exist?

My answer:

Oh hell no, from a young age we are conditioned to believe we are free to do whatever we want and yet we are forced into education, forced to wear uniform, forced to obey a set of rules that conform us into obeying an authoratative figure without even questioning their warped views.

We are also tied down by our morales, beliefs, religion and family, that keep us in 'check', that keep us from doing what we really want to do, be who we really want to be. And even if we dare do something that is out of the socially acceptable norm, we are ridiculed, bullied and subjected to being abandoned by those you love. So even if we go ahead with what we want to do we are abadoned by those we love therefore we aint truly free.

There is also an unspoken moral code that is implemented into our brains from childhood that disallows freedom of expression or even to question why things are wrong, for example we are indirectly tought that homosexuality is wrong, that girls have to look a certain way and that men are suprior all from media alone and childrens programmes. Which causes humans to grow up ignorant, self loathing and powerless to the constant influences that they have been bombarded with.

Do you still believe we are free?

SFX MAKEUP

Ok, so makeup has always been an interest of mines despite my love for gaming and manga. Yesterday I asked my beautiful friends to help me with my film studies coursework, I had to create a photostoryboard and my initial idea was a zombie killing people, somehow it turned into a demon type thing. Anyways it was freezing cold, the park was virtually empty for a saturday and i had my supplies.

For gaping wound all you need is White Foundation, Liquid Latex, Tissues and Fake Blood
For the zombie/demon look you need White Foundation and Eye Shadows

Overall i prefereed the gaping wound because i feel it was done better, looked more realistic and managed to make my friends cringe, the demon look was a fail but it was enough, I do need more practice at this and will probably try doing more looks like this for fun not work :)

Uncharted 3

Recently my awesome friends bought me Uncharted 3 as an extremley late birthday presant and I LOVE IT :D

The graphics are beautiful and playing the game in HD truly brought out the realism's within the landscape of uncharted. From the jungle to the desert it was realistic nonetheless, at one point I was so entranced by the graphics I forgot about the game.

The Gameplay has definatly improved by ALOT, within this game the new way to fight bare fist "brawling" is easier but more desirable as in the other games fighting with the fists was just plain annoying. The yet again improved way to throw grenades has made it easier to access and a vareity of different ways to do it, plus when those bastards with their armours come out its easier to grenade their fucking body off!!! :D

The storyline however is a bit.. meh, to begin with it was interesting as the whole interest within Sir Francis Drakes ring and voyage linked in with the first game, and also how it linked with Nate's past was invigourating. But it got annoying at one point... I mean seriously games are meant to be unrealistic but this was just plain annoying (not giving spoilers)

Overall I do love the game, however i'm biased coz i'm an Uncharted whore :D

Self Confidence

Now I know more than anyone what it is like to live with almost no self esteem, thinking you're worthless, unable to do anything, too small, ugly, dumb, bitchy, mean etc, and this usually stems from childhood experiances, for me it was bullying mainly.

Problem is with that kind of attitude you can never get anywhere because that little voice inside of your head will always stop you, and to be perfectly honest I hate anything controlling what I do. So when that little voice nags at me that i'm too dumb to go to university I just block it out and tell it to fuck off. This happens quite regularly, but you can never let lack of self esteem ruin your life because one day you will wake up and regret the lost oppurtunities.

I am not saying it is easy to let go.. believe me I know it isn't, I still struggle with it day in and day out, but the best thing you can do is move on and block out the world. Be selfish in gaining what you want because you only get one life, live it the way you want to.

Makeup Removal - D.I.Y

Since i'm a teenager, on a budget and also very lazy to keep restocking so here's a few things you can use as makeup removal that you can find in your home.

First one is possbly the healthiest and very conditioning to your lashes and great for your skin and that is Olive Oil



The common misconception with this however is that it clogs your pores, when it doesn't since the olive oil molecules are too big to clog so its a win win however personally i find it too thick for my eyes since i always manage to get it in there and its such an annoyance once olive oils gets in your eyes.

Second one is the alternative to olive oil that i like to use which is Baby Oil.


Now this doesn't have all the benefits of olive oil but personally i prefer it because its alot thinner and easier for me to get (since there's babies in my house lol)

The Final alternative is any face cream you have,  and i'm not joking you can use any as a makeup remover and it'll moisturise your skin just fine. :)